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The Secret

This is a blog about a secret. A secret that I tried VERY hard to keep. A secret that I was doing a fairly good job of not telling (I didn’t tell it SEVERAL times) until yesterday. And then keeping the secret not only got difficult, it nearly became a DISASTER.

The difficult thing about the secret is that it is not MY secret. It is a secret that belongs to my friend, G. A friend’s secret is a true honour to be told, so you must cherish it. I was truly cherishing G’s secret. Our mutual friend, K, didn’t know G’s secret. And I wasn’t about to be the one to tell her (No, I thought, I must CHERISH this secret that G has told me).

But then yesterday something happened. K just guessed the secret! She just blurted it out in a matter-of-fact way to me. And then she asked me if it was true. And I am a terrible liar. I usually have the truth written all over my face. And I couldn’t help but smile and I tried to look away. But I had just blown G’s secret.
I felt awful. So I asked K to not tell G that she knew G’s secret.

But I am a terrible liar. (I think I might have mentioned that.)

So, I had to tell G that I had blown her secret. And it was fairly late at night, so I decided to write G an e-mail telling the story (perhaps she would find it comical if I told it right?). I sent it that night.

And I waited for her response.

The next evening, G was coming over for a visit. She phoned me to confirm. I said, “Have you checked your e-mail?”

She said, “No.”

I said, “Um……I think you’d better check your e-mail.”

She began to laugh (I think she knew that I was silly and she had an idea of what had happened). She said, “I’ll check my e-mail and then I’ll come over.”

So we hung up.

And a few minutes later, she was knocking on my door (Oh good, she still wants to be friends, I thought).

But she looked at me and said, “I didn’t get any e-mail from you.”

I got a very bad feeling in my stomach. I knew I had a sent an e-mail confessing the evening’s blunder. And I was pretty sure I’d send it to G. But what if….. what if I’d sent it to someone else? Impossible, you say? If you’re keeping tabs on my ridiculous life or my blog, you’ll know that I wrote a love e-mail to my now-husband and accidentally sent it to his dad a few months back. I envisioned accidentally sending this e-mail with G’s secret to EVERYONE.

Oh god. What have I done?

I finally had a chance to check my “Sent Mail” and I discovered that the e-mail I thought I’d sent G was actually, in fact, sent to G’s correct e-mail address. Perhaps the server is slow. The point is, I only blew the secret to K. And right now that feels like a small success.

(If you think I’m going to tell YOU the secret, you’re out of your MIND!)